Her name is (YOU-KNOW-WHO). It's pretty confidential to tell her name out loud. I'll tell you why later but before that let me just at least tell you something about this particular person.
I've known her since high school back in 2005. It was that year when I had my first crush and started becoming interested with this girl but then, we were never close friends in high school. In fact, i think both of us never had any intentions to get close. In despite of that, we still do stay in touch with each other...well sometimes.
The breakthrough of our friendship came back in 2007 where both of us ended up as classmates. It was a bit of a shock knowing that this girl is my classmate but even so, I don't think there is a difference in being a classmate or not except for a fact that there is a middle person that connects both of us. Still, instead of getting close to her, I get closer and closer to this 'middle person'. But on that year itself, rumours were spread out about my crush on her until it reaches to her ears but then again, nothings changed. Another rumour also says that she hates me but I didn't wanna make it big, so I pretend like nothing happened.
I was expecting that 2008 would be a better year for us but the friendship just kept constant, no growth.
2009 was the year where we reached our peak. We went to the same college and yeah so from classmates we became collegemates. We are still keeping in touch over there but in mid of 2009, we had a huge fight over a small thing and I have to admit, It was probably my biggest mistake ever last year. We took a break for nearly 2 months.
There was a time where I think we should just stop thinking about the past, move on and focus about the future. So I put my pride at stake and took the initiatives to reconcile with her. It was worth of try as I succeed. Aftermath, we went back to square one. Just like the old days, we don't really talk that much. It felt like High School all over again!
But in the 3rd quarter of 2009, something lifted the height of our friendship. Again, just like in high school, we ended up as classmates but this time, only for a subject.
One day, in one of our tests for Islamic Studies, while waiting for the test to be over, we were chilling outside of the classroom and she started saying that she heard from someone else that I had a crush on her. Without further ado, she forced me to confess to her face to face and so we couldn't think of a better place than inside her car. It was a shaky moment yes cause I'm not used to simply confess to girls face to face but she was the first one to experience my confession.
However, I'm glad that I confess to her so that for the next couple of rounds, it should be easier for me to clear things off my chest.
Since that day, our friendship had never been better. We are so used to go to a restaurant or any food store to just chill and share stories with each other.
**AND THE REASON WHY IT IS CONFIDENTIAL TO SAY HER NAME OUT LOUD IS BECAUSE EVERY OUTINGS, EVERYTHING THAT WE DO HAS BEEN CONFIDENTIAL. WE TEND TO NOT TELL EVERYONE WHERE WE'RE HEADING, WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO OR WTV... NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW THAT WE ARE BESTFRIENDS JUST BECAUSE THEY DON'T SEE ANY PICTURES TAKEN OF US TOGETHER. OUR FRIENDSHIP IS JUST EXCEPTIONAL
And now this year is just another year for us. Friendship and love grow stronger simultaneously and the fact that I'm studying abroad, it plays a contributing factor. In one of the malay proverbs that goes "Jauh di mata, dekat di hati". Only god knows how much I miss her each day.
Few months ago, she told me she bought a Blackberry which enables her to 'BBM' everyone in the world without worrying of any extra charges. So when I came back to Malaysia, I initially had a plan to buy myself a Blackberry so that I can keep in touch with her daily and I also thought that my dad would get one but till today, I still haven't received any news. My plan worked, I came back to Australia and the next day itself, I signed up for a Blackberry plan and everything was just all over the moon. We were getting closer and closer till it reaches to the grandest stage of them all.
With that extra gadget in hand, it kept us in touch without any obstacles whatsoever. There's not a single where I can say that I'm not smiling or not happy cause where ever she is, she never fails to make me smile or laugh every single day.
Even though, our friendship is pretty private & confidential, her name is everywhere in my heart. I can't compare her with my other close friends because she's in a very different league. No matter where I go, I believe shes always there for me (SEBAB ADA BBM LAAA BUSUK! EEEEE!). Thank you, my dear
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, CONFLICTS AFTER CONFLICTS, I CAN CALMLY SAY THAT I LOVE YOU,
<3
0 comments:
Post a Comment